Sep 04, 2019
5am Talk with God
Sleepless, yet exhausted. Overwhelmed, yet nothing had to be done. The next time you have a sleepless night, be open to listening for God to speak! This could be the only time you have an uninterrupted conversation with him with no distraction.
No matter what I did I could not fall back to sleep. 45 minutes passed. Tossing. Turning. Blankets. No blankets. 1 hour passed. "UGH, ALRIGHT! This is ridiculous God. I give up, What do you want from me?" Looking back on this night I soon realized that God was giving me the wake up call I desperately needed that ended up being an answer to prayer.
After silence and being still, literally, I finally heard his voice.
"My thoughts are higher than your thoughts and my ways are higher than your ways". Not being able to fall asleep was confusing, until I heard those words from God. They sank in and repeated in my mind, giving me a surprising sense of calm. Now it finally all made sense. You see, earlier that night I was anticipating the next chapter of my life to start. It made sense to me. Everything leading up to it made me feel that after so long, now is finally my time! This is actually going to happen for me and to my surprise: It.Didn't.Happen. God was making me wait. But why? How was it an answer to prayer that God woke me up at 5am when I'm devastated and discouraged? Because he had the answer to my pain. His ways are better than my plan and timeline. God showed me once I put all my stubbornness and comparisons aside, that his plan will happen in my life through his timing and faithfulness, not by us forcing, planning, worrying, wondering. God wants us to have an attitude where we put our desires and needs in his hands and trust that if he's making us wait, it's because he wants it to be that much more beautiful for us. My mind shifted and I ended up cuddling up to sleep after praying to him and thanking him for a changed heart. God isn't holding out on you, he just wants his best and while we wait, he can do a new thing in us that we could never do on our own.
What wake up calls has God been speaking to you about?